The imperfect, disheveled and moody me

*COUGH* ahem *COUGH* ahem...

That's what I have been doing for the entire day. Being sick is no fun. Not at all.

However it does give me time to rest and be alone. I think this is just what I need. To be alone. I can never figure out how some people like to be around people all the time. It gets draining for me, having to show the happy side of me and that everything is ok.

Well, not everything is ok. I'm not saying this because I'm feeling particularly down, but it is how I feel all the time. There will be at least one area in my life that needs working on, that needs time to think and reflect.


I realized I haven't been reflecting on my life for a long time. I've been so caught up in stuff that is going on in my life. My family, my friends, my bf, my studies, my activities. I have carved out time for all these areas but I have forgotten about spending time on one very important area - myself.

I'm not being selfish and narcissistic. I'm being honest. You have to spend some time on self- reflection if not you are just going to lose yourself to the busy-ness of life.

It's how I preserve my sanity I guess.

It's not that I don't enjoy the company of my loved ones. I do, a lot. Without them life would be so meaningless.

But sometimes, I just need some time alone. Where I can just be me, without fearing that I'm being insensitive to people's feelings.

The imperfect, disheveled, and moody me.

*COUGH* ahem.