busy bee

i'm going to get really busy soon, with ALPHA, camp, work and outings with friends who i miss and can't wait to catch up with. so this week will be the last week i can still afford to relax a little.

then it'll be off to Eastern Europe! can't wait to get out of Singapore! not that i don't like to be with the people here but i think a break away from routine life is always good for the soul and mind.

in the busy weeks to come, i really hope to learn something and grow in areas like:
- time management
- inter-personal relationships
- patience (yup i realise i flare up quite easily these days. it's making me look bad in front of my friends. haha)

i love my hols!~

tears and sugar peanuts

i've been crying a lot lately, which is kind of weird because i have no reason to cry. and i know this has been baffling for poor Js who has no idea what to do every time my eyes start leaking. sorry dear but i really don't know the reason for being a human tap as well.

maybe it's because we won't be spending so much time together again. you'll be busy, i'll be busy. we won't have that much time for each other as before. see that's the problem with seeing your bf everyday. you can't get used to the fact that you won't be seeing each other everyday anymore.

but i'm feeling much better today! though i cried again but it's not so serious. come to think of it it may because of my imbalanced hormones (darn them), or perhaps the lack of sleep. i've forgotten the bliss of having a refreshing afternoon nap. it can really do wonders.

and i've gone back to another love of mine - sugar peanuts! they are my best friends during the exam period. haha! just kidding, unless you like crunching on your best friends...

so what happened to my resolution to lead a healthy lifestyle? well it remains as a resolution - just talk and no action... YET.

i hope my friends are enjoying their holidays! i'm enjoying myself, minus the tears and the health issues that my love for sugar peanuts can bring... haha!

oh and if you feel like cycling do ask me along. it's time i stop shrieking every time i see another passer-by or cyclist in my path...

It always hurts

it always hurts when your expectations are not met.

it always hurts when you know you can never depend on one person fully.

it always hurts when you know it's impossible for anyone to know yourself completely.

it always hurts when you know that you can't have your cake and eat it all the time.

it always hurts when you have to take the first step.

it always hurts when you have to grow up.

it's time for me to grow up, because i am not as mature as i thought i was.

somehow i feel better typing this out, because it is a first step, as tiny as it may be.

a faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains. my Daddy taught me that.

=)